To recap (and this is difficult, because so much has happened since I last wrote to y'all here but anyway):
I got into college!!!
|God bless Big George|
became an adult turned 18 -
|you see the girl with the rainbow tights in the front? holl@ das me. at graduation. as class president.|
I registered voters at SF Pride with Claire
I had my first job, first paycheck, first uncomfortable work experiences ever
|I actually had an office with my own desk and workspace and everything - too bad it was in a trailer next to a candy factory? A surreal experience to say the least, I'll be happy to recount it to you in real life if you ever meet me and ask-|
I now study International Affairs in DC, literally blocks away from the White House, State Department, and more - arriving to class late because a presidential motorcade blocked your was is an acceptable excuse here and I find that insane but it happens!
|The view from the Elliott School of International Affairs' rooftop|
|Perks of living in DC included going to the White House Tree Lighting Ceremony!|
Entering DC as someone with literally no knowledge about politics, I got whipped into shape - ridiculously quickly because of election season
I launched myself into my coursework (microecon, sociocultural anthropology, comparative politics, world history, and a university writing seminar on "The Political Brain") - and became a little too dependent on caffeine while I was at it
|disgruntled me during a 3am study session|
I became best friends with my suitemates/floormates (we call ourselves "The West Wing," haha)
|Cupcake Crawl in Georgetown!|
|Election Night! Obama actually lives in our room, *that's* how political my life has become|
|Ice Skating with The West Wing|
I became closer to some of my high school friends, despite the distance
|Henry and Me taking a nighttime excursion Jefferson Memorial during his Fall Break|
|Claire and Gabby, reunited at last - quaker hand touch!|
All in all, 2012 was hands down the most rewarding year I've had so far. Life continues to be in flux and now more than ever I'm unsure of where I stand or where to go, but at the same time I'm trying to take baby steps in learning more about who I am now and who I want to be and what I want to do and how I want to do that.
I've become hyper aware of my privilege and critical of those who aren't - but equally so, I've become so thankful for everything I've been given and motivated to utilize these tools to do good. My first semester I spent trying to just find my feet academically, next semester I plan to become active in campus life as well as get some work experience in DC. I want to meet people and learn new things and have a good time.
In all earnestness I have to admit over the past year I've been far more reserved in many aspects of my life (with the obvious example of blogging about my life here). I've come to think there's something to be said for living more in the present, planning a bit more for the future, and spending less time parsing out the past. Admittedly on my Tumblr (which I still use perhaps far more than I should) I still post about myself at a high frequency, but I don't launch into written in-depth analyses about my life as I did two years ago ago. I used to blog so often because it was a useful medium for me to organize my chaotic thoughts - but I think now that I have more people in my life who I've decided to let in, I no longer need to rely on myself to figure things out - I have help.
So that brings me to my new year's resolution: Don't hold back. 2012 was great in that I took a lot of chances and often they paid off - I'm going to ramp it up for 2013. Within reason, I'll stop bottling things up inside and let go. I'm going to let go of inhibitions, let go of that inferiority complex I'm constantly fighting, and let go of all these invisible barriers I set up for myself. I'm going to push myself to become a better person, and I will succeed.
I've learned to accept myself as I am - but the parts that I can change, I will. I don't need luck, I just need me.
/end pep talk to self
Best wishes for the new year, blog lovelies! Here's to a 2013 (and beyond) that's as wonderful as you are.